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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
{12:22 PM}

[Y] PINK IC LO

Amazingly, the euphoria of having completed National Service hasn't seem to sink in yet. Instead, I am experience a mixture of nostalgia and sadness, the type of feelings you get from leaving a familiar and comfortable environment that you have adapted so well to.

In retrospect, I have been quite lucky. Training was slack everywhere I went. I received a good posting to an appointment that I have learnt a lot from as well as gained experience that is applicable to working life in the future. I have met a HUGE range of people; from the uneducated, poor, to those with attitude problems, to the rich and arrogant.. Indeed, it has been a life changing experience as well as an eye opener.

I do not agree with a lot of things, or how the organization is run, but life is like that; almost never getting what is ideal. I have so many things to say to the people who crossed my path and touched my life, but I will try my best to compress it into 1-2 facebook notes and tag them in it.

To the one who was with me for almost a year of my journey, from BMT till the start of this year.. It may be over, but looking back, I just want to thank you for being part of it. You're here because you won't be in a facebook note.. you're in a totally different category.

To the one who spent my most hectic 3-4 months with me, through the late nights and unlimited laughter to brighten my day.. I am eternally grateful, and a million thanks will not be enough. But I know that I may never get through to you ever again, so I'll stop here. You'll be in my memory, and who knows what the future holds, but for now I doubt there's much I can do. Thanks still, for the smiles that chased away the blues, for the company that chased away lonesomeness, for the friendship that denied all odds.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009
{12:23 PM}

[Y] Long Overdue HK post

This is severely overdue! Sigh. I'm just really lazy to upload and blog stuff nowadays. Anyway, pictures are in Facebook and can only be viewed if you're my friend.

HK is surprisingly modern and moderately clean. The people there are really friendly and the food is AWESOME. I mean, you get great dimsum in Singapore? Its just X10 better there. I doubt its just the fact i'm in Hong Kong.. there's just a subtle authenticity to the dimsum over there? Not to mention its fairly cheap too.

Shopping is fun, although it was the fall/winter period already, but still managed to find things for myself going cheapcheapcheap.

Macau was wonderful! Stayed at The Venetian, a really classy hotel with deco to match its name and a nice casino for me to play in. It is almost bigger than a shopping mall itself, with over 400 shops and restaurants in there. Spent 2 days there and was almost couldn't finish doing everything I wanted.

Crossed the border (literally walked over) to Zhuhai for some shopping. The salespeople are VERY RUDE! If you dont buy their stuff after looking, they'll give you a black face and even scold you. Business sense fail! I refused to shop, only buying 2 shirts which looked really nice.

If there's one thing I've learnt, its that parents will always be parents. No matter how old their child is, it is still their child and they'll only treat them like one.

Sunday, October 11, 2009
{2:20 AM}

[Y]

I’ve never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Till you open the door there’s so much more
I’ve never seen it before
I was trying to fly but I couldn’t find wings
You came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
you spin me around
you make me crazier, crazier
Feels like i’m falling and
I lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn’t see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
you make me crazier, crazier
Feels like im falling and I
I’m lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Oh-oooh

Baby you showed me what living is for
I don’t want to hide anymore
Oh-oooh

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like i’m falling
And I, i’m lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier
Crazier

I have been hooked on this song and the lyrics of late. Been playing it on my guitar over and over again. Its the kind of song that just wouldn't sound right with anyone's voice except Taylor's.

Thank you,
for lifting my feet of the ground,
for spinning me around,
for making me crazier in doing the things that I did :)

Thursday, October 08, 2009
{9:06 PM}

[Y]

Please take down the mistleoe
Cause I don't wanna think about that right now
Cause everything I want is miles away
In a snow covered little town
Mama's in the kitchen worrying about me
Seasons greetings hope you're well
I'm doing alright if you were wondering
Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
Eveybody's here except you, baby
Seems like everyon's got someone to hold

But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everynbody
That'll have to be something I just say this year

Bet you got your mom another sweater
Were your cousins late again?
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands?

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases whe I didn't
Wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

My favourite Christmas song from Taylor! Ok I know its a long way from Christmas, but I really, really love her song. The guitar plucking is a little hard at the moment, so I'm stuck with strumming.

It's amazing how much time passes, and yet how little has changed. I struggled with it initially, thought time will pass and events will eventually be relegated to the back of my mind. But I was very wrong, and I still spend time wondering how things might have been/will be.

Of course, the end of this exercise means I have NOTHING important left till I'm done with army. It's time to focus on more meaningful things that I have been procrastinating on. It is also time to enjoy leave and off, which kicks off with a holiday to Hong Kong! Can hardly wait.

Sunday, October 04, 2009
{8:37 PM}

[Y] Falling For You

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

An excellent cover to a very meaningful song. Saw the original music video and it made me go 'AWWW!'. Honestly.

Final week of work before I 1) Fly off to HK. 2) Find a job 3) Work on personal statement for UCAS 4)Email Dean at SMU Econs. Must.Stop.Procrastinating!

Sunday, September 27, 2009
{2:39 AM}

[Y] Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows

A truly classic song that I chanced upon recently. Isn't it so awesomely meaningful?! Sad and touching at the same time. A soothing song for the broken-hearted / love-lost individuals.

Do you really believe in 'letting go of the one you love, and if he/she's meant for you, he/she'll be back?'. I've heard this phrase time and time again, yet maybe because it has never happened for me before, so I won't be appreciate any truth it holds.

I guess its kind of true that our destiny has been pre-determined, but the paths we take reflect the choices we make along the way. If the end will always be the same, then I wish I could find the end before going through the process. Whatever destiny is meant to be, I guess, only heaven knows..

Saturday, September 26, 2009
{1:53 AM}

[Y] Have you ever?

'Have you ever lost someone you love, and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back.'
-Mitch Albom, For One More Day. Awesome.

'Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it'
-Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet In Heaven. Breathtaking.

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